An Attempt at the Essence of "Good" and "Bad" So-Called Luck

From my journal entry September 5, 2011:

One thing I've wondered about almost all my life is why when good luck or bad luck strikes, it does so all at once. My bookstore supervisor says that it's because one we're there, we're there. And I think she has a point. So called luck is karma coming back to give us our "tax returns". As in the physical world, we get our taxes returned according to how much we earn; in the Ultimate World, our "taxes" are returned according to the sort of energy we "bank" into our personal Higher degrees. The aura of our Higher Selves.

Negative energy is not a sin but rather a sign that something is misaligned and must be brought back into alignment. Like the senior minister told us one day, you can't pray to set things right, you can only pray to see things right. This is a world full of maya which we created and therefore, all meaning is only in our own minds. Only we decide whether something is so-called "bad" or "good". It is not a sin, it is simply where we are in our consciousness right now. It really is up to us as to whether we choose to prefer one things over the other, to decide whether something is "bothering" us, what to think and how we perceive the world."

The so-called luck that comes back to us is a result of how we perceive the world for one moment. Divine Timing does not work the same way as our illusion of timing does. In the Ultimate Reality, there is no such thing as time at all. There is only give-n-take which, like cause and effect, are One though in two different forms.

If it is love we put forth, love is what we will receive; if it is our ego we put forth, that which is of the ego is what we will receive. Plain and simple. No exceptions, no ifs, ands or buts. The Universe does not differentiate between the exceptions, It plays no favorites and does not discrimminate. The Universe only gives back what you put into it, period. It is only the form that it comes back in that varies.

It is also for exactly the reasons such as the ones I've stated above that we must also be especially careful of thoughts such as "I wish I were sick right now so I could take the day off". Well, not only will the illness not come to you at that moment, it will also strike you when you least expect it and probably right at the moment you least want it to. Unless you catch yourself in time before you forget it and work your situation out with the Divine instead.

For example, last December, I happened to "catch" one of the worst flu viruses of the year-the five-and-a-half-weeks virus. There were occasions when it felt as if it was never going to go away and even when I was worried that I might have had something more serious. Either way, I finally realized that it was also the result of my old self-hating patterns having crept back up and I hadn't made the effort to work with them like I should have. Needless to say, during that time, I had to work very hard with the Divine about how I needed to work with myself from that point on. It was simply a sign that I needed to start to really go forward on the path I know I'm meant to take and not let anything get in the way of it.

I also now realize that the automobile accident that my mother and I survived back in 1995 (I was only eight going on nine years old at the time) was actually the first event to slingshot me on the path I was meant to take. Not that I mean anything personal against her since she couldn't really help it. Up until that point, my mother would not have me taking any other path other than one of traditional Christianity along with the delusional curse theology. After that accident, many other minorly significant events followed which ended up breaking me away from it completely. I'm now convinced that it was the Divine's way of saying, "The purpose for this is now complete. Time for you to start the path you're meant to take.". I also realize that as financially debilitated as my mother and I were at the time, that accident also prevented us from going homeless.

I realize that many people may think it's rather strange that one major automobile accident can change so much and in a positive way. For me, it did. This is what I mean about saying that the world has no meaning other than that which we attribute to it from our own minds. No, I'm not saying that the accident itself was a "good" thing, just that it ended up being the ticket to bailing my mother and I out of what could very well have been an incredible hardship. Because of this and other things that have occurred in my life, I believe that I can safetly say that the Divine doesn't give us more than we can handle.

We simply must pay attention to the signs and what they're truly trying to tell us. Otherwise, they will just keep coming back and we will keep being hindered until we do.